A girl who travels

When I decided to leave abroad, I did not have an exact plan. I had a good life in Romania, a good job , loving family and friends. However, I am a person who can actually be killed by routine and lack of

adventure for me is fatal. Few years, I understood that not only this can 'kill me'…




I guess the best endurance test you can go through is to really walk out of your comfort zone, your nest, and everything that has been known to you so far.



For the past two years I lived through enough life scenarios to write a book about, and I think this is actually what I wish from this life to write the pages of my own book, with its own fragrance, colors and unexpected turn outs. I live not knowing what tomorrow will bring me.

The way I see it I've recreated myself in every city I lived so far and all the circumstances I've been through. I met people from other countries having totally different backgrounds and beliefs as myself. Had beautiful experiences and let them go. Some are still by my side today, some not.

I can tell you one thing for sure, at the beginning of the move, you are always excited of that feeling of something new, fresh. After some time, you realize you go through the same phases you used to do once…most of them still coming from your patterns and which you thought you left back home but guess what? when it comes to mind patterns, wherever you go, there you are.

So all this journey I took outside the country was actually inside of me. What a strange thing, huh? well, where can you grow and discover yourself better than alone, in a foreign country, with no one to lean on but yourself? You can run. But what would that bring you? You came so far.  I know there are moments in our life when it's just too hard to go on and too late to go back. This are the moments which mold you or break you and even if they break you, all is breaking is your resistance build against the momentum and the experience. Once all these walls are broken, you can breathe freely again. This is our chance to prove what we are made of. Sitting in our comfort zone will never bring this up.

A knight in shiny armor just means his armor has never been really tested. Therefore, if you are a travel girl or boy like me, expect this journey to be amazing. Expect the hardest times and the most unexpected miracles. Expect to ruffle some feathers and grow new ones. Make peace with the fact you are not going to have a fixed career nor a permanent address but you will have the experience worth mentioning to your kids and grandchildren and a box of pictures from every corner of this world and a little something to remind you the places you've seen. I was always like a feather in the wind, you could not tell if I was falling or flying but I was ok with this. This world has enough of people who go hard on themselves. I love to live among rebels, travelers, healers …people with vision.

where hope dies, our real lives begin

If someone would come up to you and ask you to speak only what is true to you, what would you say, 100 % that you are sure of ?

Your job? your relationship? your bank account? your health? do you realize they can all be gone by tomorrow? 

What can we be 100% sure of? And how many people do you know which want to look within themselves and find the truth about themselves, about that 100%? 

Because we choose hope. We choose to create dreams, expectations and anything else which can look better than the present moment. We will be happy when this happens...and this...etc...Everything will be better than what is happening now. And actually now is all we've got.  Now is 100% real.

We have all the chances we can get to screw up our life daily but just as well we have all the chances to make it awesome.

We can have 100 enemies but still one friend by our side who will cheer us up and he/she can make the difference.

We can have 100 problems to bitch about in a day but still when we walk on the street, we stop for an ice cream and the guy/girl smiles at us for just one moment we forget about all that.

We can feel extremly poor one day and the other the opportunity comes along to help other people, and we feel 100 times richer.

We can have a tremendous fear but going through it we realise it did not kill us, more than this it made us reborn ...stronger than before.

We can feel very lonely one day, and the next day we find another 5 friends who feel the same...and you are not alone anymore.

As long as we are in this world we will always experience duality. 

Lucky are those who have no interest in the things that are coming and going and wish to keep their conciousness clear and stable and remain comitted to their truth,  and then truth will remain comitted to them...

Are you that lucky one?

Find yourself

This life can seem sometimes so harsh and in the midst of your despair, when you let all your guards down and accept you have no control over it, it provides you with fresh new forces to help you go through it.

Life is not free of suffering, but it's the suffering which teaches us the greatest lessons and makes us able to understand others pain and heal it. What a paradox...pain is a great healer.

We feel sometimesc we cannot carry on, and yet somehow we find the strenght to face our difficulties.
We have no idea how we are going to manage to move to another country, find another job or another house, and yet , we receive options all the way.

We are having enemies but after having a change of heart we discover our enemies have changed.
Our heart gets opened only after breaking it so many times...in order to realise that nothing was ours before and nor were we less after we did not have it anymore.

We think we are smart until we meet someone smarter which proves we have more to learn. We think we are stupid, and someone more stupid comes along and showes us we were not doing so bad.

We think we are alone, until we encounter people who go through the same things.

We think we are bad, until a child stops in front of us and smiles at us and we suddenly we feel purity in our hearts.

We lie ourselves, but still have annoying people in our life which remind us that we are not want we are trying to show off but we should be happy with our true self.

 Life is a mistery...live it...remain in silence when you don't know what to do, believe in love, count on miracles...

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Parents...

If you really want to love someone, love the ones who would be so happy and gratefull to have you in their lives.  We waste so much of our energy on impressing the wrong people or who really cannot see or appreciate what we do for them instead of giving it to the people who cannot wait to hear our voice, or for us to smile at them, or to tell them how our day went or what we bought new lately, or what we cooked lately, or how we feel like.

Family people. Our family, weather we like it or not is our foundation, we are what we are today because of our parents! Now, I know how arogant our ass can be sometimes or how we can shut our mom's and dad's mouth just because we are so damn smart and because we can do it. Yeah we're so freaking cool. NOT! And our parents take it humbly...and make peace with it and still love us unconditionally.

What fools we are... we won't understand what they did for us until we won't get our own family and than we will miss having our mom next to us, telling us how you can deal with your partner, or your kid or your finances. We will miss our dad, to encouragge us and fight with us over what they feel it is good for us.The sacrifices they made for us, the nights our mother spent feeding us and singing to us to sleep while we were babies, all the days they fed us, walked us, dressed us, and totaly offered themselves to us.

How can we even judge them, or tell them how things are going...how can we even raise our voice to the ones who really would go through fire for us and would give up everything for us?!

Yes! that's how stupid we are! we think we know everything, but we're just a bunch of loosers and realize it only when we loose our parents, or are away from them, or have or own family to take care of...

I'm not saying some of you did not have bad experiences with family...but I know that there are out there people who will understand...

We are so stupid thinking we have the time to take them for granted...

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Kidz...

For some time I have the opportunity to "work" with some kids at a kindergarten and I must admit, I am not "working" on them as much as they "work" on me. It is simply amazing to be in the middle of 4, 5, 6 year old children. The air is full of energy, freshness, purity, honesty and playfulness. 

However, there is one little girl who really made me speechless and thaught me what it means to be true to yourself, complete and not split in two personalities...

While she was acting like a little boss among the other kids (and I have to admit she earns it), she was being mean (in my opinion) to another girl, and when I gave her the "Young lady ...!" speech, she said it into my face how she needs to be like this because the other kids are bulling her around but the way she told it to me, as if she would be ready to die for her truth and for her honour. I could see in her eyes the "fire" and aliveness...and then she respectfully told me that she understand my point as well and apologized and made friends with the other girl.

While they were playing, she was so serious about what she was doing...even if she would only glue two pages together, she was in that MOMENT , releasing anger ...and whatever she felt before and than smile and playing again.

This little girl was my hero that day :)

To live...

We make a high jump being scared of heights…that’s courage

We pray for someone we love to heal and it works…that’s faith

We give a part of us to someone who can hurt us…that’s trust

We go to bed, set the alarm though we are not sure tomorrow is gonna come for us…that’s...