When I decided to leave abroad, I did not have an exact plan. I had a good life in Romania, a good job , loving family and friends. However, I am a person who can actually be killed by routine and lack of
I guess the best endurance test you can go through is to really walk out of your comfort zone, your nest, and everything that has been known to you so far.
For the past two years I lived through enough life scenarios to write a book about, and I think this is actually what I wish from this life to write the pages of my own book, with its own fragrance, colors and unexpected turn outs. I live not knowing what tomorrow will bring me.
The way I see it I've recreated myself in every city I lived so far and all the circumstances I've been through. I met people from other countries having totally different backgrounds and beliefs as myself. Had beautiful experiences and let them go. Some are still by my side today, some not.
I can tell you one thing for sure, at the beginning of the move, you are always excited of that feeling of something new, fresh. After some time, you realize you go through the same phases you used to do once…most of them still coming from your patterns and which you thought you left back home but guess what? when it comes to mind patterns, wherever you go, there you are.
So all this journey I took outside the country was actually inside of me. What a strange thing, huh? well, where can you grow and discover yourself better than alone, in a foreign country, with no one to lean on but yourself? You can run. But what would that bring you? You came so far. I know there are moments in our life when it's just too hard to go on and too late to go back. This are the moments which mold you or break you and even if they break you, all is breaking is your resistance build against the momentum and the experience. Once all these walls are broken, you can breathe freely again. This is our chance to prove what we are made of. Sitting in our comfort zone will never bring this up.
A knight in shiny armor just means his armor has never been really tested. Therefore, if you are a travel girl or boy like me, expect this journey to be amazing. Expect the hardest times and the most unexpected miracles. Expect to ruffle some feathers and grow new ones. Make peace with the fact you are not going to have a fixed career nor a permanent address but you will have the experience worth mentioning to your kids and grandchildren and a box of pictures from every corner of this world and a little something to remind you the places you've seen. I was always like a feather in the wind, you could not tell if I was falling or flying but I was ok with this. This world has enough of people who go hard on themselves. I love to live among rebels, travelers, healers …people with vision.
